Perceptions are the truth

You know something is wrong when things aint going your way and you still feel nonchalant about it..

either you are

1) Extremely confident about the entire issue

2) simply nonchalant?

Its kinda wierd coz you are suppose to get all hot and excited about taking possibily the last exam in your entire life, note the word 'possibly' since i have not rule out the chance that my school decides that im a raw gem and finally offer me a spot to do my post grad studies instead of offering it to some tactless but very academically inclined malaysian, ah-lian or some only look for you when they are in troubl really smart people. some very smart stduents.

Judging from the way things are moving, this is definately going to turn into an anti-climax. The agony would only be relieved when they offer me a post grad spot.

Its really kinda cool becoz from what i know, u get preferred treatment when u are gunning for one of the top honours in my school. These includes private meeting with dean, department heads and you mix around with the 'IN' crowd who are almost as smart as you. Not to mention that during each and every of the meetup, u get to taste the finest bueffeut spread possible at the expense of tax payers money. Coupled with the fact that u turn sneaky on all your friends ( plus it gives you the right to look at your friends from the corner of your eye)becoz u are among the elite and you can only indulge in the above mentioned activities discretely so that you can keep them guessing on the preferiential treatment that you are recieving.

Its not everyday that you are high and mighty...

Its not everyday that you enjoy these high praises...

Its not everyday that you get accepted and invited to do research for the benefit of mankind.

Its not everyday that you rub shoulders with the smartest FT around...

The only way to top it all off..

is to reject the offer.

Now its time to hit the books again... im getting carried away.