Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Post No.88
Sanity is so priceless nowadays..
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Post no. 87
Some time back when someone close went through a period like this, she told me she felt miserable. I know, coz i saw it through her eyes.
Another friend of mine did a 180 degree turn and went home to familiar grounds.
Yet another shrug it off....his 3 in 2 years.
I feel miserable but im not sure if it shows through my eyes, im moving ahead and has no intentions of revisiting familiar grounds and im not about to shrug it off. Not that i dont want, i cant.
Its a weird feeling. Somewhere in me, i felt relieved. Relieved that i found an absolution. But im not very sure if this is really wat i want.
My friend said that i have lost it. Perhapes.
As i watch you leave, i secretly pray that you will remember me for all the good times we spent together. It wasnt long and but it was really sweet. Thank you for everything.
You'll occupy the other special spot in my heart.
Astroboy.
Another friend of mine did a 180 degree turn and went home to familiar grounds.
Yet another shrug it off....his 3 in 2 years.
I feel miserable but im not sure if it shows through my eyes, im moving ahead and has no intentions of revisiting familiar grounds and im not about to shrug it off. Not that i dont want, i cant.
Its a weird feeling. Somewhere in me, i felt relieved. Relieved that i found an absolution. But im not very sure if this is really wat i want.
My friend said that i have lost it. Perhapes.
As i watch you leave, i secretly pray that you will remember me for all the good times we spent together. It wasnt long and but it was really sweet. Thank you for everything.
You'll occupy the other special spot in my heart.
Astroboy.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Post No. 86
Yesterday, my long time friend got married. I've known him since my early teens. Its been a good 14 years.
This wedding was a little different since the groom was someone whom i have grown up with. All wedding are really joyous occasions except that this one, its a little special since i was more involved in it than most other weddings.
Realised by now that i have gotten to that stage of life when kids are starting to call my UNCLE! As i watch my friend walk down the aisle, i ponder where im heading in life.
Someone once told me, marriage isnt everything. But with each passing wedding i attend (6 and counting, this year alone), i wonder if i would be able to do the same someday...
I belong to the old school. To live a purpose-ful life, i wanna go to school, get married, buy a car, have kids, provide for my family and someday, have people to mourn for me when i pass on..
I'll go now.. to continue to ponder where im heading and how much can i achieve before i pass on..
"if it makes you happy, it cant be that bad, rite?"
This wedding was a little different since the groom was someone whom i have grown up with. All wedding are really joyous occasions except that this one, its a little special since i was more involved in it than most other weddings.
Realised by now that i have gotten to that stage of life when kids are starting to call my UNCLE! As i watch my friend walk down the aisle, i ponder where im heading in life.
Someone once told me, marriage isnt everything. But with each passing wedding i attend (6 and counting, this year alone), i wonder if i would be able to do the same someday...
I belong to the old school. To live a purpose-ful life, i wanna go to school, get married, buy a car, have kids, provide for my family and someday, have people to mourn for me when i pass on..
I'll go now.. to continue to ponder where im heading and how much can i achieve before i pass on..
"if it makes you happy, it cant be that bad, rite?"
Saturday, July 08, 2006
Post No.85
I haven't been sleeping well.
NOt becoz im troubled but becoz i've been going out with my frends nite after nite after nite.
It has gotten so bad that
1) i never seem to find a proper parking lot when i come home. I always have to park illegally.
2) Mama was commenting the other day that she always find me gone when she wakes up in the middle of the nite. (apparently, thats becoz i leave home after she has fallen asleep)
Oh well... it has gotten so bad that i woke up at 0815hrs yesterday. Well..thats early for alot of us but the only problem is that i was suppose to be at work at 0800hrs. Sigh...
Last nite, i finally managed to find a proper parking lot. Well, it could be becoz my frend was driving and i didnt had to use my car.. hahah...
Point is, i finally slept before the clock strike 1am.. but i didnt exactly have an easy nite.
Life is strange. You wanted some things so much but when you finally get it, u couldnt remember what the fuss was all about...
Had to go. Need to be at my frend's house in 20 mins to pick up his bride.
More later!
NOt becoz im troubled but becoz i've been going out with my frends nite after nite after nite.
It has gotten so bad that
1) i never seem to find a proper parking lot when i come home. I always have to park illegally.
2) Mama was commenting the other day that she always find me gone when she wakes up in the middle of the nite. (apparently, thats becoz i leave home after she has fallen asleep)
Oh well... it has gotten so bad that i woke up at 0815hrs yesterday. Well..thats early for alot of us but the only problem is that i was suppose to be at work at 0800hrs. Sigh...
Last nite, i finally managed to find a proper parking lot. Well, it could be becoz my frend was driving and i didnt had to use my car.. hahah...
Point is, i finally slept before the clock strike 1am.. but i didnt exactly have an easy nite.
Life is strange. You wanted some things so much but when you finally get it, u couldnt remember what the fuss was all about...
Had to go. Need to be at my frend's house in 20 mins to pick up his bride.
More later!
